Instead of taking the safe route of saying..you take the very first step and i shall take the rest to u..
Instead of indicating...u are one of the girls id set my eyes on and if u take the first move i would have fall for u..(quoting a self pre-occupied perasan narcissistic JERK here who grr...nvm)
Instead of saying if..instead of saving face..instead of waiting..
you chose to give it all..despite the fact that i did tell you im not really ready...
After the ups and downs...honestly these days..a sweet talking msg or a gentle gesture would only give me the thought that of....ahh..it wont last..dont belief..no 1 will ever like you...its just another 1...whatever la....im kinda tired of these....
yet..your sincerity that day..brought me to the brink of tears..
I asked you am i a lucky girl or what...
you said im lucky..but u are the luckiest.. .
I then wonder to myself..what have i ever done to deserve all these..or are these just another beautiful illusions..are these just some typical reply...yet ur reply was not whether or not i deserve all this...but are u aiming too high..?
I said ive no idea on all these what so ever..what are ur expectations..u said just be URSELF n be comfortable...
Somehow you cared for my feelings more than u cared for urs..and yet u call urself selfish?
"as long as u happy ba"
I asked is it because its just the beginning and it,actually wont last..momentary infatuation..u didnt answer blindly for the sake of answering..but instead u mention..with communication and tolerance..it will...
You said u liked my smile..i said what if one day i turn really ugly..no teeth..u said something really sweet..
You said u are not a cruise but merely an old boat..but the boat will not sail without the passenger on board...
Ive never ever seen myself in such a position before..im still trying to absorb..to let things precipitate..im still kinda confused...
Hey..
things have been changing so fast..
how things evolve..
from strangers to classmate,friends, teacher, mentor, crappy mate, soul mate, boss ,captain, boat..and now......
so fast so unpredictable..
You didnt allow me to say sry..and also to say thx..but really..i want to say
im sry...
its just too big a step for the moment.......
and also i would still wanna say thx..for all that u've said and done..
Just hope that this wouldnt affect the crappy moments we share and we continue to be good friends k?
I do not know whether or not i would regret posting this..just needed an outlet...
but i know i certainly have no regrets in knowing you.
*edited
The Girl
- meng shuen ,sharon
- a 21 year old girl..who adores purple, chocolates, cheezel and u!!current favourite line~ [peace in life.. comes with simplicity..]
Beautiful
the dream land
love..
fragrance..
freshness..
purply...
tranquillity..
innocence..
joy :)
8 comments:
You have no idea how much you're well-loved =)
Anyway if it's meant to be it will be =)
it sounds like you have some ghosts that you need to exorcise.
you know, you can't afford to let ghosts of your past inhibit your present.. or else you might miss out on the future. if you're afraid to open up your heart to prevent history from repeating, you'll forever be haunted by it :)
I don't know what happened to you in the past, but do know that not all guys are out there to hurt you.
I do understand that it's a huge step to make, but don't forget that you have supportive friends and family around you, and they're all you need to get through this :)
good luck and all the best.
*nods and agrees with Mei Shan*
Will happen if it needs to. So no need for the pressure.
*shakes head*
Aman siboknye. hahaha.
eh. sibuk pulak. ouch :(
Be confident of yourself, we donoe what is meant to be or not meant to be until we tried.
failure is not an option, but it's just merely a process we have to go thru before success.
although i dun get much of what u are trying to say (not becoz of ur writting or my comprehension, just becoz i dunno wat's happeninng) but i can see that u need more confident in urself.
because only confident will tell you, there's no such thing as u deserve to be treated good or bad. u r still a human being in the world with rights to have all the good things to urself!
>meis
"how much you're well-loved "
hmm..what exactly does this phrase means?
anw thanks a lot meis...for listening and all..love ya lots
>aman
"you know, you can't afford to let ghosts of your past inhibit your present.. or else you might miss out on the future. if you're afraid to open up your heart to prevent history from repeating, you'll forever be haunted by it :)"
hmm...hey i love this para of urs there seriously...a good fren of mine told me this too..friends that matter stays..others...a catalyst for us to learn and grow..in one way or another...sumthing like that...
anw thanks a lot once again aman
>ann
:)
haha sibuk sibuk
>jason
wow...thatz kinda inspiring...
confidence huh..
and its not an option but merely a process...gotta remember that at all times...
thanks a lot for sharing Hwa Khang!
hope u are doing very well in aussie too..take care!
sorry bad english. lol
I meant you have no idea how well-loved you are.
Just keep everything at a natural pace, no rush, no dreads.
i'm sorry
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